Romans 7:18 For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out.  I keep thinking of that Spike Lee film “Do the Right Thing”. The title, that is.

I have struggled to do the right thing today.  While doing good things today, I have still struggled to say “yes” to what Jesus is calling me to do (not the same thing).

Why is it so hard for me to do the right thing? I think Paul explained it best.

Romans 7:15-20 (ESV)

15 For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. 16 Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. 17 So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. 18 For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.

I hunger and thirst for righteousness. I only recently discovered what that meant.

To me it means that I want to do the right thing.  When I do the right thing, I feel at peace. I know I have pleased God.

When I don’t, I feel conviction. I also see that I miss on whatever blessing God had waiting for me at the end of my “yes”.

Romans 7:21-25 (ESV)

21 So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. 22 For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, 23 but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. 24 Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? 25 I thank God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!

I have had increased opportunities lately to minister to people. Some of it through this blog and some through the local church. I have also experienced some breakthroughs in my walk with God recently.

Verse 21 shows me why the battle has been so intense for me lately. I feel this battle raging within me. I had spent many days basking in the warmth of what felt like God’s favor in my life. Now it’s like the enemy is trying to slam my face to bring me back to “reality”.

I experienced a couple of disappointments yesterday. They were doors slammed shut that I had thought were opening wide. In the midst of those moments, I was thinking that I needed to trust God; however, my faith was severely waning.

Where I felt like a strong, solid rock of faith, I now feel like a house built on the sand.

I need to get my faith back. I need to get kingdom-minded again.

Um, how do I do that again?

Romans 10:17 (NKJV)

17 So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.

Oh yeah…I remember now.

And…

Romans 12:2 (ESV)

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.

I should know this one. We have been reciting it every week in church for weeks now.

My mind and my faith can only be renewed by the word of God.

But…I read the Bible every morning!

If we drink something in the morning, is it enough to last us all day? If we eat something in the morning, is it enough to last us all day? (I’m not talking about all-you-can-eat buffets!)

I feel strong spiritually in the morning after filling my tank with prayer, bible study, and worship. I find myself gradually waning throughout the day, though.

I can already feel a renewal in my Spirit and a quenching of my spiritual thirst by reading through passages I have quoted here.

Here are a few more sips of water:

Phil 4:13 (NKJV)

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Matt 19:26 (NKJV)

But Jesus looked at them and said to them, “With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

Jer 29:11-14 (NKJV)

11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. 12 Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. 13 And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you, says the Lord, and I will bring you back from your captivity;

Matt 21:22 (NKJV)

22 And whatever things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive.”

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