I would like to delve a little deeper into my last post about the Armor of God.
I discussed some of the benefits of putting on my armor everyday.
But what happens when you don’t put your armor on?
I tend to be impulsive about things. I always have been. It seems I have always craved excitement in my life. You could say that my “boss” is an enabler because being a flight attendant has afforded me many opportunities to be impulsive, even when it wasn’t a good idea.
After reading through the Armor of God book, it dawned on me that my life has taken many wrong turns, simply because I did not arm myself everyday.
Because of my tendency towards impulsiveness, I need to pray specifically everyday over my schedule and my decisions.
There are some wrong turns we take in life that are easily corrected. If you have ever taken a wrong turn using your GPS in the car, it will re-route you and get you back on course.
But what about the really big decisions? Some wrong turns (decisions) we make in life have much more far-reaching consequences than others. And what I have learned is that even some of the small wrong decisions we make can lead to bigger wrong ones.
I recall something recently from my own life. A time where I was operating on very little sleep multiple days in a row and thought I didn’t have time to pray over my day. I ended up making a wrong decision that led to a myriad of consequences for our family including financial.
The toughest part of looking back on our bad decisions is realizing how much they impacted other people in our lives.
About 18 months ago, I made a decision that was BIG and BAD. The consequences of that decision were far-reaching and extended for many months afterward.
I need the peace of Jesus to fill my soul each and everyday so I don’t go chasing after excitement and thrills that might be bad for me and for my family. This type of excitement-seeking can also be seen as a drug. Sugar affects the brain, as does heroin. Excitement can be another way of trying to fill the emptiness in our souls that only the Lord can fulfill.
As I began the journey of turning my eating habits over to God, I relied heavily on Psalm 81:
Psalm 81 (NKJV)
81 Sing aloud to God our strength;
Make a joyful shout to the God of Jacob.
2 Raise a song and strike the timbrel,
The pleasant harp with the lute.
3 Blow the trumpet at the time of the New Moon,
At the full moon, on our solemn feast day.
4 For this is a statute for Israel,
A law of the God of Jacob.
5 This He established in Joseph as a testimony,
When He went throughout the land of Egypt,
Where I heard a language I did not understand.
6 “I removed his shoulder from the burden;
His hands were freed from the baskets.
7 You called in trouble, and I delivered you;
I answered you in the secret place of thunder;
I tested you at the waters of Meribah. Selah
8 “Hear, O My people, and I will admonish you!
O Israel, if you will listen to Me!
9 There shall be no foreign god among you;
Nor shall you worship any foreign god.
10 I am the Lord your God,
Who brought you out of the land of Egypt;
Open your mouth wide, and I will fill it.
11 “But My people would not heed My voice,
And Israel would have none of Me.
12 So I gave them over to their own stubborn heart,
To walk in their own counsels.
13 “Oh, that My people would listen to Me,
That Israel would walk in My ways!
14 I would soon subdue their enemies,
And turn My hand against their adversaries.
15 The haters of the Lord would pretend submission to Him,
But their fate would endure forever.
16 He would have fed them also with the finest of wheat;
And with honey from the rock I would have satisfied you.”
Verse 9 to me represented my god, or sugar.
Verse 10 was the verse I began to pray everyday to fill me instead of sugar.
Verse 16 is so beautiful. He will satisfy us with honey from the rock if we allow him. However, he does require us to walk in His ways.
One of the most painful things about learning to put on the armor of God is that it is not just some rote prayer you pray everyday. It requires humility.
I have watched some people at my church with envy for a while because I realized how much joy they had. At church this past weekend, I realized that I was beginning to walk in that joy. The only thing that was missing was for me to be completely emptied out so that He could fill me and satisfy me with honey from the rock. I don’t know why it’s so hard to lay down all the foreign gods or things we use to numb us or fill us that don’t satisfy.
I don’t think God cares what color socks we wear. However, He cares about even the littlest details of our day because little things lead to big things.
One of the most amazing engineering feats of the 20th century was what we like to call “the Chunnel”, an underwater rail system connecting England and France. Two digging machines, one from each country, slowly bored towards each other at very slow speeds, displacing earth. The machines had to maintain super accurate direction in order to meet each other. If one of them got off course by even the slightest hair, they would not meet in the middle.
We may think that our lives are just slightly off course and it’s okay, however if not corrected, it can turn into a huge problem in the future which affects not only us, but those we care about as well.